Depression

Algebra is a pain in my azz, like for realz. I mean seriously. Am i the only one who constantly wants to shred all my school? School in the summer is like uuuuuuuuugh, but whatever.

I don't cut to get attention; I cut because I feel as if in a way I deserve it... And the physical pain helps to not feel the emotional....... I remember a couple months ago, when I started cutting, the first time I couldn't believe I ACTUALLY made that happen, now it's like i'm never satisfied.......................................................... ........................................................................................................................................................................................................... I understand this is a huge problem. I understand some people are scared of me. I would be to. I just don't know how to fix myself.. 

Why do i have to get up in the morning? just for another day hating myself?  People don't understand, i don't want to be depressed.... I just am.